I have been questioning myself,
why do I wear this faux hair?
After all, I am a mature woman in a stable happy marriage.
I'm not looking for a man.
I'm retired and financially blessed.
I do not need to advance myself inn a career.
I live in a small town where many people schlep around in sweat clothing or even pajamas.
So I'm not looking to impress anyone here.
So why do I bother with this faux hair?
Why am I so obsessed with it?
The simple answer and the true answer is
that I want to contribute beauty and interest
to the world around me.
As an artist, I always notice and appreciate beauty in paintings, flowers, people, landscapes.
My goal is to contribute some of that
beauty myself.
There is something noble and wonderful
about wanting to bring joy and pleasure to others,
even by the way we dress and present ourselves to the world.
In Europe, this is the way of life.
Women (and men for that matter) wouldn't dream of parading themselves out in public wearing dirty, sweaty, ugly gym clothes!
Maybe my European heritage is embedded in my DNA.
Excavating the true self takes patience, time and courage.
I realize why Beyonce has created a character
she calls Sasha Fierce.
Sasha is the one who puts on the glamour and glitz,
the big hair and the sequin gowns,
and dance with wild abandon in videos, movies, tv shows,
and on stages all over the world.
The normally shy, quiet Beyonce is unable to express the parts of herself that only Sasha can.
So here is my little bit of beauty
that I choose to excavate,
and the I open the gate to the secret garden
and cultivate the flowering of the true self.
